Choices Made

If you think I was being a little bit of a baby the other day about the criticism of Charm City that I stumbled upon, I wouldn't necessarily disagree with you. I looked at it again, and it wasn't all that terrible, and had some truth to it. The larger part of my problem was not what was said but who said it, and the forum in which they said it. I won't waste any more time thinking about it, it is not that big a deal. It just caught me at a vulnerable moment so I may have overreacted a little bit.

You do have to have a thick skin in this business, as this stuff happens all the time. I try to be supportive of other filmmakers I have come to know, even if whatever they are creating is not really my thing. I learn a lot more (and accumulate more allies) by keeping an open mind than by ripping everyone else's work apart. I believe that there is no one that I cannot learn something from, though sometimes it is learning what NOT to do. But those lessons are equally if not more important than learning HOW to do things.

I know I made a lot of rookie mistakes on Charm City and I am fine with that. I would like to believe that 98.5%... okay, maybe 94.5%... of the cast and crew who worked on the film would willingly work with me again. And that's the other thing about this business, at least in Baltimore. You're going to end up working with people you are not crazy about if you do more than one or two projects, so the fewer lines you draw and enemies you make, the better. There might be cast or crew from Charm City that I would not hire again. But I will not always be in the driver's seat, there will be other productions (knock on wood!) like Juju that I freelance on and am not in charge of hiring or casting, and may find myself working side by side with someone not of my choice.

Anyway... I just finished three days of pick-up shots for Charm City. I think one more day and I will have everything I need. I need to get three of the actors together that day, and that has been tough, but we will get it done. They have been very cooperative and I am grateful for that. We really took our time with the scenes we shot this week and they look great.

Michelle wasn't available yesterday but my two lead actors were, so Eric filled in as DP for me so we could knock some stuff out. After we wrapped last night, Eric and I looked at a LOT of the footage from the 2 weeks of principle photography. I am really happy with it, all of the elements are there. The acting is great, the cinematography is sharp, and I have to say we had some stellar locations that combined make the film look even better than I had hoped for. I was initially worried about so much of the footage being shot in the interiors of bars, but now I think it will be fine, as it will be broken up with a lot of other stuff, and it is a well-balanced mix. We had three bars but they each have a different look and feel to them; five homes/apartments, which were even more distinctive - two very luxurious mansions, a warehouse apartment, a "masculine", straight-forward house, for lack of better description, and a more feminine, artsy house; our outdoor scenes (for which the weather was perfect) were very Baltimore - Federal Hill Park, Mount Vernon Square, and the War Memorial across from City Hall; also my friend Steve's house served as our Courthouse interior (and Steve as our Justice of the Peace), and Charles Lawrence's gallery in Fells Point doubled as Moxie Gallery. Those interiors were so rich and colorful, I can't wait to start editing those scenes. I am probably forgetting a few locations, but those were the main ones and I believe a good mix. We also have a few car scenes of conversations in moving cars.

What I am missing a lot of is single coverage, or close-ups of one person at a time. It is an ensemble cast and in some of the scenes there were sometimes EIGHT people coming and going from the same conversation. I'd still be filming if we did the wide shot and then shot singles of EVERYONE. So I had to make a lot of choices along the way of where I had to skimp on coverage to stay on schedule and under budget. These pick-up days have been nice because they were scenes that were important to get a lot of coverage and we took our time because we only shot about 2 pages a day. We averaged SEVEN pages a day during principle photography, and there were a couple days in there we did ten or eleven! But again, I think I have a balanced mix of scenes where I do and do not have coverage. And I myself LIKE scenes that show more than one person during the conversation. I think they help the actors to stay in character if they know the camera is on them. It is easy to let performance slip if you know it is someone else's close-up and you are not in the shot, plus it is easier, I think, for the actor not to OVER-do it if they are in a scene with someone else. Sometimes if they know it is their close-up, they ham it up a bit too much. And especially for a "talkie" with loads of dialogue about personal relationships, I like to see the body language of the person who is not speaking in the scene. I think in important moments that is just as important as focusing on the person who is talking.

So I can live with all of that. I find myself saying that a lot, now that I am in post. It's a good thing, because if I couldn't live with it, I still wouldn't have much choice in the matter. It is in the can and I only have a little bit of money leftover for post-production.

Well, I have to go finish putting together the schedule for Juju's pick-up days so I better get rolling. One more week of that to get through, then I can really concentrate on editing Charm City. Can't wait to really dig in.

Let the Games Begin (or, Continue...)

Today was a mixed bag. On top of my day job, which is in flux for reasons too complicated to get into, I'm trying to schedule both my pick-up days for Charm City and the pick-up days for Juju. I've got a decent handle on all three... it is just a lot of balls to keep in the air.

Some stuff in my personal life going on, too, making me reflect on decisions that brought me to where I am today. Things that initially make one think, oh my god, if I only would have done this or stuck with that, I'd be in a totally different place right now, life would be completely different!... and I would be, and it would be... and it would not be the right place or the right life for me, because where I am is where I should be. Where I am, I don't have all the answers, I am not at my final destination, I have not reached all my goals... how boring would life be if I did? I've gotten this far without running out of questions and the desire to learn more than I know now. Don't see that changing anytime soon.

I have finally, but just barely, started the editing process. Through a nice barter deal with a great guy, Charlie Anderson of Stratatek Studios, I am learning the ropes, one on one.

Though at first I found it frustrating (because I had to step away from my own project), now I am so glad that immediately after wrapping principle photography on Charm City I started working on Juju. Going back to look at the footage after not having seen it for 2 months gives me a great deal of perspective. I see now that there are some shots I didn't know to insist upon, and there are some shots that I insisted I could live without that I should have gotten. But still, I am confident that through the magic of editing I can come up with a decent product in the end. Could it be better? Of course! But that is what first features are for. Of COURSE I would love for this to be my big splash, and I'll do everything I can to make that happen. But will this be my masterpiece? God, I hope not! If so, there would be no place to go but down, right? I have no delusions of grandeur in that regard.

But I will admit that I would like for people to respect what I have accomplished to date, or, at a minimum, not shit all over it. At the same time, it is a fine line for me to walk. It is complicated... I am not sure how to explain it... egos everywhere, including mine, I'm sure. There are so many people I have met, and learned from, and just flat out revered. To name a few: Sean Stanley, Michelle Farrell, and Eric Thornett. These three are the Indie Holy Trinity as far as I am concerned. Flip back through previous posts just to get a taste of what they have helped me through, and continue to help me through. I started off knowing each of them by bartering services or resources that aided both parties, but more importantly now, they are my friends.

But I digress, sort of...

On my shoot, a few people chose to tell me, sometimes in rather harsh terms, what they thought I was doing wrong, or should do better, or basically should have known coming out of the womb... I tried to take it all in stride. I suppose sometimes I did and sometimes I didn't, I don't know. Nothing I couldn't live with, no mistakes I couldn't own. Never claimed to be perfect, or even know what I was doing. That's what first productions are for. It made me a better Production Manager for Juju. This was that production team's first feature-length. Sometimes when I just wanted to bitch, I remembered how it made me feel when people on my team on Charm City did that... and I kept my mouth shut. If it was something important, I would say it, to their (the producers) faces (not via email, or text message, or voicemail) and at an appropriate (read: private) time and place. Like any business, there is a hierarchy in filmmaking. If you want to cause a scene, create drama, you can certainly earn a name for yourself - among your peers and subordinates. But there are several things more important to keep in mind: (1) the people you are impressing by behaving this way are generally not the people who hired you, (2) the people who hired you are not likely to be impressed, (3) this business is an incredibly small microcosm, so (4) the people who hired you know other people who may or may NOT hire you.

But it is not just about even that, to me. It is about respect, and integrity. I am just a little disillusioned at the moment... today I found something online, accidentally, written about Charm City by someone who had worked on the production. Not only had I personally signed this person on to the project, and enjoyed working with that person throughout, I then went out on a limb to get that person hired onto Juju, with pay, and mid-production went further out on that limb to get that person more money.

Double-whammy to me is that person is female. Filmmaking is a Boys' Club, no doubt. I am not complaining, though, because it gives me an edge. Female Writer/Producer/Directors are few and far between, especially in the Indie world. It gives me a hook. I'll take it. But to be slammed by another female, a female that I hired, TWICE... who was nice to my face, who I gave more credit than that... it just makes me feel like a sucker.

On the other hand, this person is young, and though I don't think that is carte blanche for anything (and I hated it when people would say that, "oh, she's young," about me when I actually WAS young), it makes it easier for me to live with. As far as I know, she hasn't written, OR directed, OR produced a feature-length film. And she probably spent as much money going to school for it as people handed me to make my film, because they believe in me. So, you know, I can live with all of that.

Dealing with the Ex(es)

Pick-up dates are like old boyfriends. If enough time has passed, you kind of forget (or romanticize) the reasons why the guy/the production made you tear your hair out, and how you were so happy when it was over, and you kind of even look forward to seeing him/it again.

I am in the middle of trying to schedule pick-up dates for Charm City next week, pick-up dates for Juju the following week, scheduling some edit time for CC, and doing a little pre-pro reconnaissance for the Juju Director/Producer for his project immediately following the final wrap on Juju. Plus my "day job", so it is like I am working two full-time jobs at the same time. Oh, and there is a PBS crew filming some interviews for a documentary at my place right now. My stomach kinda hurts.

But it's all good. Scheduling is just a little bit of a nightmare for the CC pick-ups, more so than the Juju pick-ups. Since Juju's budget is several times the size of Charm City's, they could afford to hire actors who act for a living (and therefore, are often not working). Whereas on my little budget, I could only pay the actors what I call a "PIA" fee, which hopefully covered them for the money they spent on gas and wardrobe, so it didn't cost them money to be in my film (though for some, I know it did). But that means they all have day jobs (like me!) to pay the bills, and can't drop everything to film a few scenes. Still, I am hopeful we can all get together, and really I am looking forward to it. Now that I have another feature-length production under my belt, I feel a great deal more relaxed about the business, and confident in my abilities. It will take some patience, but I will get it done.

There are only a few actors that I need for the pick-ups (5 out of my dozen ensemble cast), and I am anxious to get together with them. I miss them, actually! All of them. I was so overwhelmed with responsibility at the time of principle photography that their weren't many moments that I was able to relax. But the cast had such great chemistry that they seemed to be laughing with each other all the time. It made me happy to see that, and it made me feel like I had chosen just the right actors. Life did seem to truly imitate art... imitating life... the way they all got along. But I was a little jealous at times that I couldn't join in whole-heartedly in the joking around. Just had too much on my plate. That's what comes with the territory when it is your project.

So, we'll see how it goes next week, with both the editing, which I am very anxious to get to, and the pick-up dates, which I am very anxious to check off my to-do list. Starting to think about what lies ahead. Do I start writing another script? I have one pretty well sketched out in my head, I think it would flow pretty quickly if I started putting it to paper. Or do I continue working on other people's projects? Am I down with OPP? Well, it is nice (a) to get paid and (b) to get SOME sleep. I may have the opportunity to do so soon. Adding some more credits to my resume would be nice, and especially since a lot of people who do this solely for a living can't always find a gig, it would probably be unwise to turn anything down, if I am to be serious, and taken seriously, about making a career change.

Productions really are like ex-boyfriends. I know some people don't get people (like me) who can be friends or friendly with there ex(es). And of course we all have those who screwed us over so badly that we never want to see them again (though usually those make for the most entertaining stories). But my philosophy about boyfriends is that I wouldn't have been attracted to them, I wouldn't have stayed with them for however long if they didn't have some good qualities, if I didn't have some fun with them, if I didn't care. So sometimes it is nice to see them again. And with the productions I've worked on so far, I definitely care, and it is important to put the finishing touches on them, to do it right. And like, with boyfriends, it makes it easier if you leave things on good terms, in the event that you see them again, say, at a local theater... :) Hopefully a local theater with your name in lights outside and a packed house inside!

Finish Line

"Juju," wrapped principle photography last night. I mean this morning. It was our second 20+ hour day this week. And I remember thinking what a killer day it was when we ran 15 hours on my set on "Charm City"!

It was quite an education and I am glad to have had the opportunity. I jumped into this business less than a year ago, and it is my fourth film credit (if you only count being writer/director/producer/etc on my own film as one credit). It was great to have done it back-to-back with my own film, as a lot of things were fresh in my mind. Making a movie is very similar to a group of people standing in a circle, every person with a gun in each hand, one of them pointed at the temple of the person to the left, one at the person to the right. We all are hostage to each other. One might think that the director or producer, whoever is writing the checks, has unlimited power, but that is really not the case. There are so many people you need on a set: the DP, PM (by now you must know these acronyms, or you just aren't paying attention), film crew, sound, make-up, props, catering, even down to the production assistants, who depending on the budget, might not even be getting paid at all. Even extras, who, as a group, pretty much screw you over every time. If twenty people swear on their respective grandmothers' graves that they will show up - count on five. On a good day.

You need ALL of these people and it is a lot of work to keep the peace and keep things moving at the same time. Coming fresh off my own film, it was still raw in my mind the people, events, and attitudes that made my life easier as a director/producer, and those that were counter-productive. "Juju" is the first feature-length project from this director and producer, and I told myself that as Production Manager, I was going to give them everything I wish people had given me, but didn't always come through on. That wasn't always easy to do, especially yesterday. I was nauseous most of the day, seemed to be fighting something flu-like, probably the result of our previous filming day which lasted from 10:00am Monday until after 6:00am Tuesday, and was all exteriors. We filmed at Wayne Shipley's field in Jessup, where the majority of his film, "One-Eyed Horse," was shot. FANTASTIC location and Wayne is the nicest guy in the world (as well as being very smart - he's got a distribution deal nearly locked up and has already sold over 1,100 DVDs). But by four a.m. it was pretty cold and my shoes were soaked from the dew in the tall grass and we were about out of bug repellant. I had arranged for a very nice tent from Absolute Party Rental and a very sanitary port-a-potty from Gotugo, but they didn't offer much in the way of warmth or shelter.

I knew from the start that yesterday was going to go just as long, and put that together with feeling crappy, I was probably a bit grumpy at the start of the production day. But we had a beautiful location at a mansion in Glen Burnie (yes! A MANSION in Glen Burnie!) and the lovely woman who owns the home allowed us to use her furnished, warm, comfortable basement for holding (anyone who is not on set) and catering. I actually found her on Craigslist! I am very wary of going into people's homes as locations, and I try to brace them for the assault. If they haven't done it before, they usually just think it is going to be cool and fun, and it is - but when they first see all that equipment and people rolling in... things can go downhill very quickly. But Mrs. Freeland has had filming at her house before and she was extremely hospitable and friendly, and it was a great place to end the shoot, ESPECIALLY because it rained off and all all day and night.

Super-long days like that can be all right, though. It seems like the first half of the day, people growl around at different stages, and then once everyone has accepted their fate to be stuck together for many, many more hours, everyone sorts of lets go of it. It happened on my set that way a couple times, which at the time made me nervous, because I felt guilty having everyone there so long, and I thought it was just the calm before the storm. But now I know. It was nice in a way to hang out with everyone yesterday. I think we were more relaxed because we could see the light at the end of the tunnel, even if it took us almost an entire rotation of the planet to get there.